Thank you... and THE SINGLE IS HERE!
THANK YOU SO MUCH for making it possible to hit our goal to complete the album. Because of you and so many others, this album will get to be shared to the world within the month to its full completion. As one of a thousand thank you’s, I wanted to give you the link to download the single NOW for free (YAY!).
The first single and title track of the record is called “Bandit Queen” as I’m sure you’ve seen. I wrote this song with my dear friend and amazing songwriter/guitarist Frank Romano. Frank and I were set up to write at his house in East Nashville one day. I knew it was going to be a fun day because he insisted I bring Emmylou, my dog, with me. It was our first time writing together that day on October 21st, 2014. I walked in and he immediately started showing me these amazing track options he made for us to write to. He was flipping through the options when he played this badass gritty groove that sent me on a journey.
I had been watching these TV shows like, Sons of Anarchy and Game of Thrones, that were filled with what they call the “antihero”. I loved the realness of the characters (much like the rest of the world). It was so refreshing to see a their flaws and vulnerabilities so revealed on these shows, unlike the styles of the past where the good guy is perfect and the bad guy has no redeeming qualities. This antihero style of writing and film was inspiring to me because not only did it, in some weird way, aid and inspire self acceptance, it was so fun transforming and creating a relatable character that was nothing like me.
I was a pretty good kid. Too good. Probably cause there isn’t a lot of mischief to get into when you hang out and are in a band with a bunch of middle aged folks (smart thinking mom and dad). Growing up very religious, it wouldn’t be a stretch to say I leaned towards prudish. I didn’t break rules or rebel. I stayed between the lines pretty comfortably. There’s something about the small town southern culture that makes us feel like we should act like life is perfect, we are perfect and we have it all together all the time. I would say I was pretty good at doing that at certain levels. But naturally, I’m a very blunt, honest, strong, spirited and sassy person- I get that from my mom (holy lord is she ever!). As I’ve grown into an adult and gone through some shit, much like a lot of folks in my generation I have found to really value raw honesty and I surround myself with it as much as possible. My close friends and I talk about our struggles and how we are working to overcome them- and not just the easy ones- the “skeleton in the closet” ones. The “these are the thoughts in my head that I am battling every day” ones. Over time the idea of wanting to act or look or sound or be perfect has just….well…..gotten boring. It lacked growth.
The “Bandit Queen” is the furthest woman I could or ever will be like. And creating her character and performing in her shoes is one of the most empowering feelings I have ever experienced. She knows what she is and she accepts it regardless of others. She embraces her passions and is unapologetic about her sexuality. She is her own woman and no one can veer her from fighting to the death for her truth.
When I felt hopeless trying to make this record, wondering if I would ever be able to see it to its completion. I would close my eyes and pretend I was her. Her sauce and strength and tenacity brought me back to believing in what I was doing. She helped me remember the value of the beliefs that I have based my decisions on in my life and helped me keep going.
In sharing her with you guys, I hope she can do the same for you, in whatever your are striving for or battling against. I hope she makes you feel like you can do anything- literally anything- you set your heart on. Because that is all I dream for, for each and every one of us